Posted on December 16, 2009 - by Jennifer

30 Day Meditation Challenge: Day 10

Tuesday December 15, 2009: Okay, so, in yoga they say “adapt, adjust, and accommodate”, right? ¬†Well, somehow the day got away from me and I found myself “adjusting” my meditation schedule to the evening once again. ¬†I practiced 2 rounds of the bija mantra, chanting out loud both rounds. ¬†I hate to go all Yoda, but I did notice that the force was not as strong as the previous meditation. ¬†That said, I experienced some similarities to the previous day’s meditation. ¬†Again, energy seemed to radiate from a point between my shoulder blades. ¬†So, it felt sort of like wings. ¬†I did not experience anything that felt like flying up or leaving my body. ¬†But, at the conclusion of the meditation, when I opened my eyes, I did again experience that sense of being an observer of my own body. ¬†I wasn’t hovering above it or anything dramatic like that. ¬†I just didn’t quite feel like the arms and hands and legs I saw when I opened my eyes were “mine”. ¬†It’s a strange state of mind, perhaps because we don’t often consciously examine our relationship to our various moving parts. ¬†We don’t typically exclaim, “Why, yes, that’s MY hand moving that cup or typing on this keyboard!” ¬†And, yet, we do feel like it’s ours. ¬†So, when I open my eyes, I guess what I feel is a momentary sense that while the arms and hands and fingers and toes I am seeing as ¬†I look down are real and tangible, they don’t necessarily contain me. ¬†It’s a hard feeling to express. ¬†But we do sort of experience our bodies as containers, as this tangible, physical thing that is both our way of experiencing the world and a boundary of some sort, a separation between us and other beings or other objects. ¬†And for a moment, when I open my eyes, instead of feeling like I’m inside this container, I just see the container.